Monday, March 25, 2013
I've officially been an indie author since September 2011, so about a year and a half. When I put my first baby out into the world all by myself, my idea of success was simple. To sell enough books to pay for the cost of self-publishing.
I mean, I couldn't justify losing money on my venture, so if I could just break even... I'd be a success.
It's funny how my view of success has changed a million times in just a few months. Now with self-publishers hitting all kinds bestseller's lists and dominating Amazon's top 100, and doing it in record time, the definition of success, or at least our perception of what success is, can be all over the map.
-if I break even, I'll be a success
-if I make enough money to pay the heating...
-If I make enough money to pay the rent/mortgage...
-if I make enough money to quit my day job
At some point it moves from making money to survive to this:
-if I make the top 100 Amazon
-if I make NYT bestsellers list
-if agents start calling me
-if I get a publishing deal AND I get to keep my e-rights
-if I become a household name in the industry
-if I have a zillion fans
-if I get a movie deal
(Even Trad published authors get caught up in this. One well-known YA author actually tweeted about how HARD it was for her to keep getting asked when her book was going to be made into a movie. She felt like a barren woman who was always being asked when she was going to have kids. Yes, she REALLY said this!)
Let me tell you, this is a recipe for crazy making.
So, what is the definition of success?
I don't know. It's different for everyone. I actually have a hard time seeing myself as successful because I've placed a high bar in front of me that I haven't yet reached.
Sometimes you need to lower the bar.
I got this email recently. It made me smile. It helped me to lower my bar.
"... I've bought all of the clockwise series, Seaweed, Perception, and the Jars of Clay series, ... your writing is amazing, and I can only hope that one day I will be a success like you (:"
Sometimes we don't see ourselves the way other people see us. I'd say, most of the time.
Are you a success? I bet you are. Just lower the bar and keep smiling.
Author of paranormal young adult and new adult novels under the pseudonym Lee Strauss.